I am making this post to once and for all clear things up becaue i heard from a friend today at work that you think that i hate you. This couldn't be any further from the truth. I mean yes i did at the start but it was a trivial childish hate that really arose out of my jelousy. And as for the avoidance it wasn't because of hate either. It was more to make it easy for me to let go. You know out of sight out of mind. If anything i should thank you. If it weren't for the motivation that i got from being around you or wanting to be around you i would be nowhere today. Befor i met you i was pretty much a low life. A little kid who played video games all day, spent all day at Gateway (ewwww), and didn't care about my health. Though we have had some hard times mainly due to my stupidness i still set goals to hopefully impress you or something. I don't really know what i was thinking but i kept those goals. Now i'm going to graduate with a business degree this year and i've been offerd a job at starbucks corprate headquarters so i'll probably be moving to seattle after this summer. On top of that my health has improved dramatically. I'm not going to appolagize for anything in the past for not all of it was my fault but i know now that i acted like a little shit.
More than anything i just want to wish you luck in Japan. I'll keep my fingers crossed for you. You have definatly had it far from easy but what you must understand is that life isn't supposed to be easy and just handed to you and thats why you need to make friends so you have someone that you can rely on. Sometimes you just need to let people in and not keep so closed off. I also don't think the whole jimmy thing is a good idea but who am i to say anything.